Just me...

Friday, May 13, 2005

I quit!

I quit my job y'all!!! I did it, I can't believe I did it. But it came to the point where I had to. I know quiting a job without another one in line is not the smartest thing to do. But it seemed that to many things were pointing towards doing it. I have several great leads and it was getting to difficult to interview with all of them without taking time from my job , at a time when my job is not only ridiculous but just to do my job required to much extra hours and time, which I didn't have the time for nor the mind for. I just wasn't willing to do it anymore. I am taking a chance, I am taking a risk, a somewhat uncalculated risk, this is unlike me, it is not in my nature to have unknowns in such big aspects of my life - like how I'm going to make a living!! But I truly have faith that it will work out in the end. In a couple of weeks I will be officially unemployed, and at this very moment, I do not have a job set in stone yet. I truly think I quit partly because I didn't think it was fair to the people I was working for that so many of the things I was responsible for I was not going to be around for much longer, I know they will feel the crunch of my absense, I know they will obviously operate with out me, but it felt good to hav the VP come to me today and ask me if there was any way to change my mind. There may have been, but the things I want changed will not come about in no time, and I don't feel like waiting until this organization can get it together. It also felt good to hear him say if my endevors dont work out for me that I am always welcome to come back (I don't think I would do that) but it felt good to hear him say it, and who knows, if I ever did come back, maybe they will give me everything I want. I think all things have a way of working themselves out, and I am excited to see how they will. I know that I still don't want corporate america to be my last stop in life, but right now I have to live day by day. Right now this thing has put this hold on my life and I don't like it when my life has to stop for any one thing - I have not been able to focus on my health, have not been working out, my social life is suffering and hopefully now I can refocus. I need to study, I need to work out, I need to work on my health, and I need to focus on my now "interest" :) Yes, I have recently met someone knew, it's been refreshing to spend time with someone, I actually look forward to seeing more then once! lol...I don't want to make any rash decisions as to "where is this going" or how i feel about him, but right now it feels good, so i'm going to let it be. I know some of my friends may think I am reacting to quickly to a recent heart break, but right now I am enjoying talking and spending my time with a fun and interesting person. Is there anything wrong with that???