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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Stranded...

Ok, it's been a while. There, you happy!:)
Well, needless to say things have been hectic, but I'll get in to all that later.
First, I must talk about my Memorial day weekend tire blow out. I am coming back home from a weekend with some of my friends at the beach and BBQ'ing. It's about 2 hours away so I get up Monday morning to try and get a head start on the traffic. While on the freeway my tire completely BLOWS out, I mean it is in shreds by the time I exit and try to pull up on the shoulder. So when I pull up on the shoulder, I end up behind a cop giving someone a speeding ticket and he comes over to me and just offers to call AAA, he calls and tells me they will be here in less then 20 minutes. I wait and wait and wait. It's waaay over 20 minutes. I proceed to call AAA again to see what's going on and up pulls a car behind me and the guy steps out and asks if I need help, I tell him AAA should be coming but it seems they are a little late. He says he was late dropping someone off at the airport and that he saw me on the way there and back and asks if all I need is a tire change. I look down and I think that's all it is. So he insists on doing it. Now let me just mention, he is totally adorable and I am standing there admiring him the whole time. He proceeds to chit chat about my name, what I do, what he does, where he is from, where I am from and I am just sitting there not wanting this to end! Ok, fast forward, I thank him and tell him I don't know what to say, he tilts his head (so cute!) says he is from Texas, that that's how they do it and that it was his pleasure. We pause, he says he is going to follow me for a little just to make sure everything is OK. I get in my car and go! Oh my goodness, he is gone! How did I let him slip away! I want to kick myself right now. I sort of thought on my way home, that if he wanted any info he would have initiated that, and that he was just a nice guy helping someone stuck on the side of the road. So I was discussing this with one of my male friends, and he basically got on my case about why I thought I had to wait for the man to make an asshole of himself and how this is what is normally expected. And he is right, that is what I expected because that is what I am used to. My friend said to me and I quote "this person did all of that, told you his whole freaking story, stopped his car, changed your tire, why if anything, he did all of that". I mean, maybe all this guy was trying to do was be nice and help someone out who needed help, but if I saw a good opportunity here should I have done something or sit around wait for him to do it because he was the "guy"?? People help me out! I am obviously no good at this:(
The thing is, he is not the typical kind of guy that I'm usually drawn to or that usually catches my eye(you know how everyone sort of has a "type"), but he just left this impression anyway! If I liked him like that, I knew he couldn't be from California:). Normally if I fall for them, they live here, but are not FROM here:)

As for the rest of my life, I'm a little to worn out to get in to that to much right now. But I am looking for a job (or some kind of employment) and trying to make some pretty big decisions. I can't wait until this is all over. I did learn one thing though. I learned how much my real family and friends mean to me and how much I want them around me in my everyday life. Being away from everyone has definately caused me to step outside my comfort zone and now I have to decide which way I want to go with it all.